it might just all be a facade

Friday, August 10, 2007;

♥ 8/10/2007 05:04:00 AM

dont forget to remember me>>

I'll be on my way to the airport in approx. 6 more hours.
I'll be on my way to china is approx. 9 more hours.
And.
I'll only be home in another 22more days. ):
SOBS.

Anyways, for those who have yet to bug me for the photos (service, FDD, bday celebration, etc), im sorry! Try again 3 weeks ltr.
Aiyah, im fated for china. ): I went there when i was P5, went there again for slt when i was sec4, and now, again. Haha, my dearest friend was sarcastic. He said i should might as well migrate to china. =l

Yeah, anyways. NDP wasnt too bad! (: I miss ndp05. Rmbr those retarded times i spent with my contingent mates, esp the spastic 6. :D Fun fun fun.

Alright, miss me!

i miss you so;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Thursday, August 09, 2007;

♥ 8/09/2007 01:05:00 AM

It's the hardest thing i'll ever have to do
To show no emitions when you start to cry
It's the hardest thing i'll ever have to lie
To turn around and walk away pretending i don't love you>>

Friday and Saturday was totally love. <3>
Friday, i cabbed down to fairfield from jj. There was Founder's Day Service.
It feels so so nice to be back i the same ol' Chen Su Lan hall, with your familiar looking friends standing around you. And what youre doing is exactly what you'd done for a decade, singing praises and worshipping. Im not a Christian, but still i love it when the whole hall starts to sing praises. (: What i love more was being able to be back in the same ol' Chen Su Lan hall, and your friends and you busy chattering away.
Saturday, i met up with hafiz in the morning! My, it has been a great ten million years since i last saw you! :D And vincent ps-ed us. ): Pfft! We went back to pj, and on the way i was drowning hafiz with all my lame jokes. :D And we were practically laughing the moment we stepped into the bus interchange, to the moment we met wanting. So, we were feeling really awkward and decided to stand outside pjc and wait for wanting to bring us in, since she's in pj uniform. (: And the next thing i know, we were back in the familiar environment, with a few familiar people around.

Saturday afternoon, i went shopping with my mum to prepare me for my trip. Oh, im so dreading it. ):

Saturday evening, yy came over to my place. And we both went to fairfield for FDD. Most people were in black and white. Fairfield went broadway. (: Okay, to sum the whole night up: the company's great, the food suck. FDD08, im coming for you!
Y'know, Fairfield gave us the bestest memories that anyone could ask for. It gave me the sweetest memories to treasure, the impt lessons to learn from, and of course, the bestest friends on earth to keep in contact with. Even though i graduate from Fairfield already, but well, im still a ten yr old fairsian! (: Fairfield, you left with me one of the most impt things in life, and you'll always be a part of me. <33>

Today, we had national day celebration in school. It started with the class having only 10 ppl, and huiyee kokyao desmond and i laughin thru assembly. Huili huiyee and i started singing along to the national day songs which were being played in the hall. And then, we had cotton candy! <3> Next, we went down to the canteen,and celebrated benja's and aaron's bday. (: We had cake fight! Then, the fairfield guys and i went IMM for lunch, with my hair stained with chocolate. Eewk. And, Zhihao's really really hiliarious. xp

Pictures!
Founder's Day Service

Founder's Day Dinner

PJC Open Hse

Ben's and Aaron's bday celebration

Btw, have i ever mention or complain to you bout the upcoming trip that i'll be going? Goodness gracious, IM REALLY REALLY REALLY DREADING IT. ): SOBS.

i know i wont forget you;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Friday, August 03, 2007;

♥ 8/03/2007 05:04:00 PM

Sometimes, when the mood's right.
You can just find a song which explains somehow,exactly how you feel. (:

When there was Me and
You
It's funny when you find yourself
looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all i
want is to be over there
Why did i let myself
believe
Miracles could
happen
'Cause now i have to pretend
That i don't really
care

I thought you were my
fairytale
a dream when i'm not
sleeping
A wish upon a star
thats coming true
But
everybody else could tell
That i confused my feelings
with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore i knew the melody
That i
heard you singing
And when you smiled you made me
feel
Like i could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

Now
i know your not a fairytale
And dreams are
meant for sleeping
And wishes on a
star
Just don't come true
'Cause now even i can tell
That i confused my
feelings with the truth
Because i liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't
believe that i could be so blind
It's like you
were floating
While i was falling
And i didn't mind

Because i liked the
view
I thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

Anyways, i was thinking about my 'fears', and i came up with these four really major ones.
(1) Fear of dark. (Yes! Goodness know how fearful im everytime we have a confidence walk during rc camp. ): haha! Notice how i make sure the lights in the room are switched on before i set foot into the room?)
(2) Fear of bugs. (Esp those horrible flying ones! Ugh. SCRAMMM!)
(3) Fear of pain. (Yeah, i know. Irony. Esp since i.., mm. =l)
(4) Fear of heights. (Totally. And my daddy happily took the 30th storey apartment of our new block. =l Well done, dad!)
Well, as for the rest. Thats for me to keep them as a secret, and for yall to guess.

Oh yeah! Hafiz's being nice and he's going to accompany me to pjc open hse. (:
And ive gotta get back to my history notes. ): I detest studying a bunch of dead people. Ugh.
Dont you dare ask me why i take h1 history. It isnt my fault tt jj doesnt offer h1 econs to those taking h2 biology right!
Pfft!

i thought you felt it too
really;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Thursday, August 02, 2007;

♥ 8/02/2007 08:55:00 PM

This cut
Its the deepest so far>>

CTs WAS A BIG BOO-BOO!
It was so horredously screwed up, i swear, esp bio.
UGHHH.

Okay, on a lighter note, ive made plans for my 'post-CT' period.
Friday, i'll attend a briefing, before heading down to the good ol' fairfield for grad service. <33>
Saturday, i'll dive back to my dearest pioneer! <3> I hope i get to see all, if not most, of my friends there! :D Sat evening, good ol' fairfield again for FDD.
Sunday, my beloved parents and my bro and i will go buy for myself a mp3/mp4/ipod. (: And then, my mummy dearest will bring me to shop for the upcoming trip. :D
Mon blues, i need to go back school. ): And i bet all the papers will start drowning my life. (In fact, i'll be getting back the math paper tmr! AHHH!)

Some random thoughts for the day:
- I saw this really old couple, holding hands walking across the road. (: How sweet is sweet huh? (:
- My friend saw me on the us, and he said that i should NVR take bus alone. Because i always get emo when im alone on the bus, with my mp3. =l
- I finally got the jackets from jinliu! :D
- Oh ya! I still have my hist paper to go. ):

my favourite song
doesnt get me happy anymore;

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.